I woke up REALLY early this morning – around 4am – and was unable to get back into a restful sleep. I kept having really awkward dreams. I don’t know what they were about. The last one was just really sorrowful and sad and … I don’t know …. weird … I don’t recall any of the details – just that I woke up feeling really aware of my emotions – and annoyingly awake while it was still dark outside.
This is not a good way to wake up.
I believe it’s called waking up on the wrong side of the bed. 🙂
No, I’m not really in a grumpy mood today – just … it’s started off weird and that upsets my OCD-quality of life I’ve got goin’ on over here. I never wake up before 6:45am.
But I did wake up at 6:05am for good and the house was still quiet and I thought, “Oh well, this will be nice for a bit. The children are still asleep.” Isn’t this a mother’s REAL DREAM??
And wouldn’t you know that just as soon as I started this blog post at 6:20am…there was one of them, at my shoulder, rubbing their eyes, saying, “Mama??”
If I recall, that’s exactly what happened when I decided to go to bed early last night. I laid down, turned off the lights and the TV and sprawled out on my bed – I was the only one in it. I was going to stretch out, relax and fall into sleep before Royce came to bed. It was going to be GLORIOUS!
No sooner had I cut the lights and stretched out under my freshly washed sheets (ok they weren’t really but I was really having fun pretending I was in some luxurious hotel room with those ridiculous 1000 count egyptian cotton sheets that are so – OH MY GOOD GRIEF – amazingly soft!) – anyway – no sooner than I had stretched out….there was a little child’s voice in my ear, “Mama? Are you ready for me to snuggle with you?”
Of course I said, “Awww…..ok Claire…come on. Let’s go to sleep now.” And she said, “Oh good! I was waiting for you!!”
She really meant it too. She does not like to fall asleep on her own. She’s only 4 you know….
So in the course of this blog post about “Quiet Mornings” I’ve made breakfast, cleaned some dishes, redirected a child’s activities, and tried to figure out what was wrong with his foot where something was “hurting right here in that one spot even though there’s not a cut or a blister or a splinter….”
Motherhood is SOOOO glorious – isn’t it? All I can say is that really, I have really sweet kids who love me a lot and for that, I’m really thankful. I do like quiet times – but one day the kids will be grown and gone and I’ll have so much freakin’ quiet time I’ll be sick of hearing the birds chatter in the morning. Honestly. Really.
I’m just thinking that next time I wake up at 4am and I find myself struggling to get into a restful sleep again, I’m just going to get up and have my quiet morning THEN and … about 8am or so, when I should be in full Mothering mode, I’ll just go take a nap. That should please the children quiet nicely! LOL!
I guess it’s time for me to go hop in the shower, get dressed and take charge of the day. It’s 6:51 now. Time for me to get up!!
Oh! There’s my Mom on the Google IM Chat …. calling me to a conversation!! How funny considering the blog post!! Now I can delay my shower for 10 more minutes…. hee hee…
Cheers to a quiet morning – hope everyone else enjoyed theirs!! (Morning that is, not necessarily a quiet one!)